Monday, July 26, 2004
Hmm.. Have been reading other ppl's blog.. After i read Jie Wei's one.. I suddenly feel that i am totally useless.. I did nothing to help them when they have problem.. I dun see it a problem.. I even take it as joke sometime.. Telling them that they cant eat brownie and cookies.. Look like i in real wrong..
Not onli that, when lenny start to push them too hard.. i dun even defend for them.. I juz stand there and think that it shouldnt be like that.. I could have stop him and say it is not right to do that.. But i din.. Is it because i show too much respect to him that i dun want to offend him? or am i juz coward to do it? Maybe coward.. Always afraid of this, afraid of that.. I take too much precaution some time.. That eventually, it hurts ppl more than it helps them..
My last words before i became a Welfarehead is, A Welfare Head need to take care of everyone, Not juz the members, also the committee.. He have to stand in the netural line that, everyone got their rights to say their things.. He shouldnt be biased and he should have his own stand on certain things.. Judging over things base on the words of 2 parties, not juz one.. Welfare Head should know everyone, understand them and know what they need.. Reduce their stress and problems and then turn the place to be a home.. Where they can find comfort in it.. In the committee, he is the speakman for the whole team, in the team, he is a brother to everyone..
So looking back at those that i said.. I done nothing.. I juz do what i need to do, my task as a welfarehead, Blah Blah Blah.. I did nothing for the team, dun even say the committee.. My members are damn stress and filled wif problems.. But i did nothing.. I am speechless infront of them, and i dun understand them..
Hai.. I shouldnt have been one, it shouldnt have started.. I dun even want to be one.. Cause i know i sucks in it.. I can say big words, but whats the use of it.. I did nothing but talk.. I hope that the upcoming welfarehead is a good one.. Far more better than me.. Even Dion is better than me.. Really.. Last Year's events and trainings was a good experience.. But this year.. U see?? Dun even have outdoor activities.. Thats how suck i am.. BaGA!!!!!!
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