Thursday, February 16, 2006
Read on my ex's blog, and realise that how bad i have been all this while.. Never realise that i did so much damage to other people. Ya, i sucks sometime, thinking that i am very good in everything. But sadly thats not the true though, hopefully it is not too late to realise it now.
As for her, she found a new love, and i really happy for her. But i also hope that the guy that went so much for her, will really love her alot, cause that is what i lack. I doubt i will do so much for a gal, but this incident made me realise that you need to appreciate inorder to love a thing. Appreciate what u have and u love it more to bits. Ya i still rem when i was younger, i will do small little things for my gfs, make a card, hand make roses, or simply make a few hundred small stars and put into bottles and give to her. Now i think differently, i find those things useless, waste of time, and money. But seriously, is it true? After so much that happened, i realise it was not about the money, the time, the things that u gave her, it is the effort and love u put into make it that makes it so memorable and nice. Really, i only start to realise it now that all those small gifts that i got, stars, hand made wind chime, is a symbol that my ex gfs love me. But i din appreciate that. Now the thing is, what i have done for them? Thinking back, sadly none. Totally ashamed of myself.. If i ever got a gal that i like, i going to make sure those little bits count, but well its not easy now. :)
Magnum training this few days, so they are staying over in the school for training, went down a few times and stayed over, suppose to go down today, but hmm, i finished my report quite late, so stayed in hostel instead. Ya, training got ups and downs, saw them fall but watch them climb back again. Its always this period of time when u can see real frenzship and backstabbers, but of course u have to work with them till the end of the competition.
But recently, i am thinking of something, its confidental, so i cannot be straight forward here. I kinda of worried for Magnum, really. While talking cascually in the meetings that i have, i get to know that a "foreign" team is in the game. Well, not really foreign, anyway, ask me if u wan to know who is it. Totally, Singapore all the while is being know that Magnum have been the 5th time national champ, but really, is this title that important? Sadly, its true for any kind of competition, u wan to win and win it good. But wat happen when u lost? If ever magnum lost, i really hope that the team wont fall because of that, but realise that there is no way a forever winner, but a winner that learns how to climb up when it falls. U are truely a winner when u win totally, using everything u got, even if u lose in the end. Oh ya, about the foreign team, to me before i ever know that, i thought it wont be a threat so much to magnum, in a sense because i seen magnum's training and this time, its really unique. But when i know about the situation, it is like singapore hiring foreign talents to come to singapore and fight for singapore. But eventually even if u win, do u truthly win? In the end, u borrowed from some people's strength to win. But sadly u are using the same name, so people will look upon the name, not the people that won it. Very confusing? Of course, its meant to be confusing.
Anyway, Good luck magnum.. And to li ping, Good luck and wish you all the best..
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