Sunday, March 19, 2006
A long day of outing. Lets get direct to the point. Hmm, i suppose to take a test, but went down to the office, the whole office is closed, i din rem to bring out the phone no of my lecturer, so i walked around, trying to find another way in, but nope, cant be found, but end up, the first door that i tried was opened, cause the lecturer came out to open it and then i have my test in his room. It is weird because no weird move could be done, so sad.. Not like the actual one where everyone copy like siao.. Anyway it was quite smooth, juz that some parts i was uncertain on how it was done.. Neverthless i still manage to complete it.
After that came back hall to rest, cant rest for long because going down to Marina to have a bbq dinner with the committee, then reach there quite late, but we manage to get most of the committee down. Well i din meet her down, cause someone fetching her down, so its okie.. When she arrived, normal la, juz that somehow i feel that she got the sense of avoid to me, i gave her food, but she dun wan, then i pass the food to another guy, beside her, but then she start to eat from the food that suppose that i giving her. Nevermind, its okie, but she is like afraid of what, i dun know, after that i become quite slient because everyone was chatting away, while me happen to be apart of the conversation, one dude realize that and came over, my makan bubby, but i din say anything, juz say that i tired, but i know he knows that i lying la.. Anyway, dinner ends, and we made our way to cineleisure, for KTV.. Hmm side joke, a guy actually RAN infront of us from behind juz to get the taxi infront of us, what f man.. This kind of guy also have.. Nevermind, we did get our taxi in the end and reach there.. Alot of ppl there, ya its weekend, i know.. Then got a room and start to see.. She din talk to me much, and she stick on to the guy but not me, the guy is attached by the way, can sense that she is using him as a block, maybe i think too much, i wont be affected by it, but i really wish that she dun do that, because i am not that thick skinned, if i sense that you dun wan me to be too close to you, i eventually move out of that area, anyway i quite apart from her until the later part, but its everyone moving into my section that i have to push back and end up close to her. But can sense that she dun wan ba, so i make my way to the corner, slack awhile, listen to music, sing along. Nothing big goes on, ya u guys are wondering, y dun spend the chance to talk to her.. The thing is, i cant! I dun know y, i become speechless when i look at her, and i got nothing to say, its bad, real bad, because i afraid to offend her? Anyway, the day ends quite fast, and here i am writing the blog, realise that i din took any photo with her, none.. All are grp photos.. i quite sad abt that, i wanted to take with her one.. But din have the courage to ask her.. Anyway, i really feel that its over for me, i dun stand a tiny chance, cause i am a loser, i cant provide her with anything that she like.. So maybe i have to give up.. But i dun want, i really dun want.. But is not up to me to say, its her.. Since i can sense that le.. Maybe slowly ba.. I really feel that maybe she juz tell me straight in the face that, "i wont like you, because blah blah.." Maybe that hurts real bad, but i think its better for both me and her.. I really hope that it will be "I like you too".. Really Hope.. Really..
Larry
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